Journal begins May 2011

Give thanks for the new you that is coming forward little by little.  Anticipate your new capacities which are growing even now.

Take time to celebrate how far you have come and that you are continuing to grow forward.

Day 1 the rest of my life
Happy cinco de Mayo 2011

“This life is yours. Take the power to choose what you want to do and do it well. Take the power to love what you want in life and love it honestly. Take the power to walk in the forest and be a part of nature. Take the power to control your own life. No one else can do it for you. Take the power to make your life happy.”

Goals

get off couch with rocking to do it
get into truck without gasping for breath
not worrying about chairs with arms & whether I'll fit or being sturdy enough to hold my weight
walking without canes &  without gasping for breath
liking my reflection in the mirror or images in photographs
feeling good wearing clothes that fit comfortably

more added later just started these at 4:44 am.

Day 2 5-6-11

Exercised on bike & dancing one long song each + ledge pushups. Couldn't sleep from pain! Got to be gentler with my body cause I do like walking. Also like being able to sleep without aching. Elbows & knees STILL hurt. May try pool later. OK with scripts, food & water both days.

5-12-11 thursday

I've been making good choices for the last week but am battling hunger during the night. I had an Unjury Protein shake mixed with mandarin oranges at 2 & at 5 with powerade zero.

Laundry in machine & the rest in laundry room. Garbage collected & kitchen straightened cause cleaning lady  is coming.

We're going out to dinner tonight with friends & I will be aware that Friday am is TOPS Take Off Pounds Sensibly weigh in. Meeting them at BBQ Steak house for steak, salad & potato at 4:30.

White load in dryer.

Robe & rugs done. Butt crunches.

Horse radish disquised as sour cream kept me from eating baked potato. A 'duh' move. Had not seen twiced baked as an option nor could I get green salad but ate only small amount of coleslaw & 1 sweet potato fry. A successful choices dine out experience. Yay!

5-13-11 Friday

Everything hurts. Had clam chowder with saltines about 1 am. Schedule totally reversed. Slept in until 9 so no meeting but weighed 380 only 5#'s up from last TOPS weigh in. 3 bacon & 2 eggs for breakfast. I do appreciate all Hubby does. BBQ marinated chicken for lunch & chinese takeout for dinner. Left most of my soup. Woke up sweating at 10 of three & took pm pills.

"Gluttony is an emotional escape, a sign something is eating us". - Peter De Vries

5-14-11 Saturday

Set up all pills for month minus HCTZ & lisinopril 20mg. Put 10 mg in each am pill. See doctor in June for new scripts.

Had Atkins shake, 2 egg cheese omelette with salsa, 3 sausages, toast with Promise & no sugar added orange marmalade, cold soup from last night, sf pudding, salad, bread, turkey sandwich...ate 1/2 early other 1/2 later. Too many carbs but still good choices.